City lights hide the stars tonight
Few comforts exist during these hours that crawl
But there’s a small flame in me that fantasies of you still ignite
And for a few blissful seconds, I swear I hear you down the hall
I imagine your eyes setting up the scribble eager words on each page
Each sloppy letter unmasking my desperation
But loving you means I must be strong enough to trade
Kisses every morning for a monthly 5 minute phone conversation
Every corner, every shadow, every place
Your voice is in the distance, somewhere nearby
Your silhouette, just a flash of your face
I’m praying constantly you’ll be back for another goodbye
Inner reason beckons me back
From dreams too extreme for my mind to wander
I retreat within, as the sky slowly fades to black
To our paradise their laws of logic consistently squander
I could list you a million scenarios I’ve created
Ways that would explain you appearing suddenly
Imagination has been such solace as I’ve waited
Until finally, you find your way back home to me
I’m sending telepathic “I love yous”
Melting eagerly into each idyllic hallucination
I will not crumble, instead I choose
To build an oasis within my isolation
For my amazing boyfriend, whom i miss so much, Robert Anthony Yannuzzi 333
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