Beat myself, the way you did
Mix the bruises with the beauty
Drown myself in memories
In my brain, I hear your voice echoing
Screaming that you hate me
Cut up lips try to smile
I look for myself to shine through
Everywhere I look I’m bleeding black and blue
You can rest easy, dad
I did the job for you
Cut myself, the way you did
But the scars don’t look the same
I need to feel that pain
Rip my nails through my skin
Telling myself I was to blame
Open wounds adorn pale flesh
Dirty and infected
And If I were dissected
You’d find a heart too broken to mend
And a soul barren and defected
Hate myself, the way you did
You were right after all
Every time, you made me feel so small
You still shadow my life everyday
Telling me I will fall
I’ll pick the scabs relentlessly
And relive the hurt again
It hurts the same as it did back then
I try so hard to heal myself
But the bleeding never ends
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