I wish you would hate me sometimes
Sometimes I think I might help
You may be able to forgive me
But I’ll never forgive myself
I think about us now and
I think about us then
How far away I have pushed you
Since the days you were my best friend
I had a reason somewhere locked inside me
An excuse I used to justify
But every time I see you
I still can’t look you in the eye
And you’ll never know I still dreamt of your laughter
Or that I still drew your name in hearts
You’ll never know I cried three straight days after
After the day I tore us apart
Time has stretched me far from you
You’re much happier now it seems
I wonder where we’d be sometimes
I see our untold future in my dreams
I held back when I should have told you
Biting my tongue to keep in how I feel
Then you left, broken and defeated
But I wonder still, was what we had real?
I retrace my steps in my head
Erase my destructive tendencies
But it’s too late and reality can’t change
I threw away that chance for you and me
And you’ll never know my heart broke as well
I hurt myself when I hurt you
And you’ll never know how it kills me now
That I never told you I loved you too
*Inspired by someone very special* |
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