I’ve lived so long in fear
Biting down hard on my bleeding tongue
I see you and it becomes clear
Behind the smile lives a monster overlooked by everyone
It’s amusing to you how hesitant I am
You pick and pull at my insecurities
Difficult, I imagine, for you to even comprehend
What it might be like for someone like me
I have cowered under your intimidation
I wonder now, what was I afraid of?
Behind all your powers of manipulation
Lives a girl only her own self can love
You rip apart anyone critical of your mistakes
Remaining a victim and somehow blameless
It’s hard for some to hate a beautiful face
And anyone who does must be jealous
But beauty will surely fade in time
Despite your failed attempts to remain preserved
You won’t always have your looks to impress others by
And eventually you will get what you deserve
Everything you are is skin deep and shallow
No sign of virtue or depth
Throwing stones at us from your plateau
Until finally, you’re the only one left
Unworthy are the rest of us
Though I’ve called you my friend before
You look down at us little people with disgust
The unconfident and the insecure
There was a time when I wanted your life
I wanted that attention and that control
But I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night
I’d rather be ugly and have a soul
I’ve lived so long in fear
I wonder now, what was I afraid of?
Your beauty fades year by year
Leaving behind a monster no one could love
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