Outside your door without a password
I scratch and claw to be let in
Always waiting for you to emerge
For you to walk through me again
Starving for affection, they say
Desperate for attention, it seems
I watch the passing of another day
Clinging tightly to these last dreams
Strangers look down in pity
Watching the little girl left behind in the snow
Following the footsteps you left behind for me
I held your hand til you let go
So bury me here
And I shall die as I lived
Immobilized by my own paranoia and fear
Waiting for my life to begin
You were the first to teacher I ever had
You taught me of the coldness in people’s hearts
And it’s all because of you dad
That I awaken terrified of becoming the person you are
Your family of addictions takes priority
Each like a child you provide for
Always in dead last you can find me
Waiting for a scrap of meat, a hug, something more
From the day I was born you have looked away
Even now as I struggle to catch your eye
My heart breaks a little more each day
As you fail to notice the daughter you deny
So bury he here
And I shall die as I have lived
While pieces of myself disappear
I stand outside your window looking in
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