cold starless night,
feels just as cold as me
just as empty and desolate
and just as alone
the sky does not cry and i do not cry
crying is expressing emotions, and expressing emotions failing to maintain self control
all the pressures in my life
are being crammed into one tiny gnawing corner of my mind
i have as many worries as the sky has stars
and yet people don't realize that the smile is painted and the laugh is imitated, copied from those who express no concerns
to worry is human, and to be human is weak
i feel so fucking alone right now
one cold planet far from the sun
i have a best friend but that fails to help when the nights overwhelm me and the darkness creeps into my heart
but i am not supposed to feel lonliness becos loneliness is dependency and being dependent makes you vulnerable
i have gotten off track somewhere
jumped out of orbit and heading for deep space
and it seems no matter how hard i try i can't put things back
i cannot fix my problems becos I am broken
but to be broken is to be weak and disposable,
vulnerable and undesirable, and everything that i am |
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