Love… gone. Hate… returned.
Happiness… never. Sadness… forever.
Hope… a fantasy. Despair… my life.
Mother how much you do love me.
You even told me so when I was young.
You left my father because you love me so.
You never called to hear about your son because you love me.
Mother do you remember my birth?
Did you cry when I was born?
My father told me I didn’t.
You both thought I was dead.
As did the doctors.
I am sorry that I was not dead.
Do you wish I was mother?
I do.
You came back into my life, but never looked at as your son.
You looked at me like I was a so-called friend.
Mother if you love me so…, why did you not smother me with my pillow?
Mother why do you love me so…?
Look mother I am now a man.
I’m sorry I forgot you do not see me.
Why does God make me suffer mother?
Is it because you love me so…
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that I have made you sad.
I’m sorry I ruined you life.
I’m glad you still love me so...
Mother you told me you loved me.
Mother you told me you were dying.
Mother you told me you wished I was never born.
I love you.
I have always been dead.
I wish I was never born for you sake, but…
Mother others do care about me.
Only one other can love me such as you.
Mother my life is not in vain.
Mother I’m sorry I’m a disgrace to you.
Mother I’m sorry I’m not as you want.
Mother why do you not want me to see you?
Mother why do you not want me to go to you funeral?
Mother I’m sorry I forgot, ill pollute the earth with my despair.
Mother I’m sorry but I am going to see you because only you and one other can love me so…
Mother thank you for loving me so… its more then any one else has
Mother forget about me.
Again I am sorry you already did, but I found you.
I’m sorry but I thought I must know.
Mother only one other do I love.
Mother I’m sorry your not the only one in my heart.
Mother I’m so sorry but I must go.
Mother my other love loves me so… too.
Mother I’m sorry but, I love you.
Mother I'm sorry I was yours, I know how much sadness I caused you.
Mother I’m so sorry.
Mother I hope you do still love me so… much that you hate me.
I don’t even remember when I wrote this… but it seems an eternity for more pain has passed…
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