As I sit here
Thinking about life
I remember when I was little
And how things used to be
Watching cartoons,playing video games
Those were some of my favorite things
As I got older and made some friends
Life started turning
From dad beating mom
To look at that girl shes gay
My friends found out
A little secret I held deep inside
Some didn't care
Some said we can't be friends
Some made fun
And they laughed
And they taunted
Made my life hell
I had no one to talk too
No one to help me
So I lived my life
With everything bottled up inside
Not one word said
To family or friends
Then one day I decided I had enough
So I wrote everyone a note
To tell them I was sorry
I loved them all
And thank you for what you've done
You didn't bring me to this
You gave me everything
I ever wanted
You were there to see me through
And I'm sorry good-bye
So I grabbed a knife
And slit my throat
As I lay there and die
I keep wondering why
Why am I doing this
Why must this happen to me
Why can't someone help me
I stop the questioning
And I start to pray
Pray for a better life
Pray for better things
Finally I start to fade away
And when she came home
I heard her say
Why did this happen
My daughter is dying
She called the paramedics
And they came as fast as they could
By the time
They got there
I was already dead
But my mother still questioned
Why did a girl
Who looked so happy and free
Have to take this route
And leave me alone
With no words said
Lana Sullivan
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