Sometimes I feel as if I'm losing hope that people who arent assholes actually exist. Are their actions intentional from the start? Or just the aftermath of giving into a selfish desire? I guess it wouldn't matter to most people, but I've always been the person (idiot, maybe?) who cared. I'll think about why people do the things they do. What if their life could have triggered this behavior? Everyone goes through a rough time. Should we be angry with someone for doing something we disagree with or something that hurts us? Or should we try to think of their situation and understand them?
I think that's the problem with the world. Everyone is out to find the quickest answer, the black and white, or perhaps even what they've been told to believe or think.
I don't know if it happens to everyone but I happen to have met someone I just clicked with. There is no quick answer, there is no black and white. There's something beyond what we know, beyond what we could ever discover, that I have experienced. Although it's not a mutual thing, I consider myself very lucky. And although I doubt you'll ever understand me, I hope you realize there is someone out there who admires even what you can't stand about yourself. Your flaws are beautiful. You are beyond beautiful. It hurts me like no other that someone had you and let it go, only to leave you hurt. If I could have one thing in the world, I'd want for you to be happy. I'm fully aware I would not be involved in that picture, but your happiness is more important to myself than my own. Meeting you has very well destroyed me, but what I have learned is beyond whatever words we could ever find, could ever say. |
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