I don't know whose life im living but it sure ain't mine
I remeber as a little girl, before the age of nine
Everything was fine
Now I'm just always tired...
Tired of living the present
Tired of remembering the past
Tired of being stressed about the future
Tired of hearing myself bitch and complain
I was fine but now I'm insane
Sleeping on the tracks waiting for a train
I cant take any of this pain
Now I'm just always depressed...
Depressed about what I see when i look at myself
Depressed over what the world has done to me
Depressed because of you not being there to see
Depressed now, and always will be
I'm not who I used to be
I'm not what you used to see
I don't go by my name, I'm not me
Now I'm just confused...
Confused over what I am
Confused about who still loves me or not
Confused about still wanting to live
Confused alot
And to answer all this
I dont deserve bliss
Fuck this
I dont deserve to live
I won't be here much longer so don't worry
I'm so sorry, why didn't my mom have an abortion instead of birth?
Why was I even put on this earth? |
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