I think I have finally hit the point
The point where nothing else matters anymore
Because you are not the person
I wanted you to be
Its not that I don’t love you
Its that your not supposed to love me
Not anymore not again
Please please, just stop before you show me
Everything that I love
But I will never have
You’ve come back around
I knew that you would
But it hurts me so much
Because I’ve finally moved on
And he’s great
I love everything about him
But one thing….
Hes not you..
He never made me cry
He never really knew me
He still doesn’t
But you, you did
And maybe that’s why it hurt
So bad when you didn’t love me
When you left me
Just to cry for days
And I think somewhere in my heart
Im still crying
Im still crying because your back
And you’re not playing my game
Your not pretending that you don’t care
Instead you tell me
How beautiful I am
And I’ve been trying to change for so long
I’m being perfect, everything I fell short of before
And so I’m totally alone
Alone with my deceitful self
I’m warn down shot down
And never have I felt a bigger rush
Because your not the person that I thought you were
Because again
You finally care
damn, i know this isnt a poem... but i really had to write it down, i am so confused and i just need to figure it out, on paper, everything sucks, please just love me.... for who i am, i hate having to pretend to be the perfect one the person that everyone has always thought i was, but i constantly fall short of for myself
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