What have i dont to make you hate me so much?
There's not one day where you don't find a flaw in something I've done.* Maybe it was there... maybe it wasn't, but you dont have mention it ALL the time.*
Ah! Hold your tongue! I already know how much of a dissappointment I am to you. You don't have to REMIND me every - single - day about how much of a screw up I am. DAMNIT, it gets old. Redundant, but as scathing as ever.
I may not be the posterchild of perfection, but Im not that bad.* I may not get immaculate report cards, I may not get the highest academic honors... BUT I do well. Well enough for me that is! But not for you, no. Everytime I get a "bad" grade, I wonder "How is this going to affect my Average?". Sometimes, I'll even take the time to figure it out. AND WHAT DESPAIR comes over me if its not an A! "What's dad gonna think? He going to think Im Remedial... again"
I'VE GOT NEWS FOR YOU DAD. I'm not as stupid as you THINK... Maybe some stuff is HARD for me to do. Maybe my teachers AREN'T teaching me as well as they could. MAYBE IT'S NOT MY FAULT.
But, I digress... you were always a stubborn man. Indifferent to my opinions, for, I am only a child. I have no place to speak, even, in matters where I am concerned. I will kneel to you and head your words - grievingly - but will do.
Thank you for your time. I love you Dad.*
*-* Just now added in
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