| i feel as though my head is going to explode...i can feel the blood pumping in time with the precious beating of my heart..it is a loud, overbearing pain i wish i could end..it just never seems to end..i get so frustrated with my life i just want to end it all..i want to end everything so badly, it would be much more simple and easy..my eyes burn from the hours of crying..the endless tears never seem to stop flowing..it is out of my control..i wish someone would be here for me to talk to, but that would be just too much effort for one single person to make..i feel hated sometimes, but yet more so i feel hatred towards everybody..i feel awkward and out of place, like i dont belong anywhere..i belong only inside of myself where i seem to find the best hiding places..the best hiding places are found in the depths of my bleeding soul; no one can ever find me here..they cant find me because i am trapped...trapped to the point where i am entangled with all of my problems, emotions, and angst which along with tears, seems to be endless...the endless sickness of depression has seemed to overtake my body and soul causing me to suddenly break down at any moment...an emotional breakdown which can cause the most pain, not just physically but more so emotionally..i feel like somebody is overtaking my body and hovering over me...with their strength they are ripping out my heart, and all the love and kindness that is left inside..ripping out all that they possibly can, leaving me with nothing but a lonely soul...a lonely soul which lost all of its friends..left so alone that its only choice is to die...so i am dieing inside, knowing not what to do, while people stand and watch my precious body desinigrate and become free to the long awaited happiness which could only possibly be found through the darkness of death. |
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