I'm trying to hide from everyone
I don't want them to see me
No one ever sees who I am
They just look at me and think that they like me
They like my appearances
I'm attractive to them
I should be flattered
Happy that I'm getting noticed
But I'm not
It terrifies me
For if I'm noticed and my boyfriend finds out I'll be in trouble
So I hide behind sunglasses so no one can see the bruises
I wear baggy clothes so people can't see my body
I look at the floor
My boyfriend walks beside me
Holding my hand
Acting like he cares
Like he really loves me
And he swears he does
He tells me every night
But I don't know if I can believe it
Because he beats me
Whenever he's mad
I become his punching bag
Thrown around like nothing
I'm left battered and bruised
Crying by myself
But I'm scared to get out
I don't know what else there is
This seems like life to me
It's normal
It's been this way all my life
The male's in control
If he hits me I deserve it
So what do I do?
I can't figure it out
Until one day he comes home
He begins to rage
He grabs me
Throws me down on the floor
Starts punching me
Slapping me
Kicking me
I look around
I'm crying it's never been this bad
I look into his eyes
I can see the rage
He's ready to kill
I'm terrified
And then I see it
I see the knife in his pocket
So I reach up
I grab it and I stab him
Then I leave him
I call the police
And go outside
I cry on the steps outside the front door
But then I realize I'm free
Everything's going to be okay
Because I'm no longer his punching bag. |
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