I look around at the world I'm in
Wondering how many people know I exist
Do I even matter?
Do they see me when I walk by or are they oblivious to my presence?
I don't understand it
I try so hard
But why won't people notice me
Why am I left alone to fend for myself?
With no one to turn to
No one to talk to
I turn to the drugs
They become my friend
And I get noticed
People talk to me now
They want to be with me
I love it all
I love the feeling of racing around high
Of being noticed by people
But then everything falls apart
I get kicked out of my house
I have to live with my dealer
I run out of money
But now I'm addicted
I need to have the drugs
So I steal
I lie
I cheat my way through life
I start to prostitute
Sleeping with the dealers
Sleeping with men
All for the drugs
The damn drugs that got me noticed
Made me feel like a person
But now I'm alone again
All by myslef
There's no one to notice me
Except for the doctors and nurses that care for me
Becuase I went to far one night
I took too many drugs
I mixed too many substances
And I got into trouble
I got beat by my pimp
And then left for dead
But instead I lived
And now I'm in a care home
Learning how to tie my shoes again
All because I wanted to get noticed
Because this world is a cruel place
And I couldn't accept who I was. |
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