i'm feeling, feeling
like i've been shut down
as i let go of it all
as i begin to drown
my screams, screams
such a beautiful sound
suppressed underwater
to think i was someones daughter
and all i wanna do
is show everyone whats inside
show them how much i've cried
its these things, the things you never see on the outside
and as the pain begins to subside
i take my beatings with pride
never ending pain
and all you can do is fucking complain
yet you have the perfect life
never wanting to take that knife
and slice your skin
while you let out a big grin
as my head fills with black
i lay back and let the water attack
just floating there
this isn't unfair
i'm aware
as they declare
my death to my loved ones
she grabs one of the guns
cause its all just too much to take
and i know now that this was all a mistake
my heart just aches
at the thought of the day at the lake
the day that i began to break
its all gone in a flash
as the bullet begins to smash
into her skull, into her forehead
that i kissed as we lay in bed
but mommy i never meant for it to happen
and now both our hearts are misshapen
all the beatings they've taken
but god i know i wasnt mistaken
when i cried about being forsaken
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