Could what i am currently experiencing, be "Schizotypal"?

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Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-09 00:04:42
	(Before you read my post, you should be aware that i try my best to be a very honest person, and i tend not to do or say things for attention) Hello! I suffer from "Pure-o OCD", and i am pretty certain that i also experience some symptoms of paranoia and severe depression. I spend a majority of my computer time taking mental health quizzes on the internet, because i am obsessed with the current state of my mental health. Anyway, i became intense and worried that i may be experiencing a "Personality Disorder" so i decided to take a quiz on the internet, out of curiosity. Everything was either listed as "Moderate, high, or very high". Schizotypal caught my eye more than anything else, because i'm constantly worried that i experience mild schizophrenia, and it fell under the category of "very high". Here's what i often experience, or have experienced in the past: - I believe that friends and family are constantly talking about me behind my back, or creating plots to sneak into my room, and read the suicidal-based poems or art in my journal. - I believe that people can sometimes see into what i am thinking, or some of the nasty thoughts that i experience because of pure-o and/or depression, and are just too afraid to tell me. - I often take the life of a film maker, and create an imaginary life in my mind, for her/him I'll make a list of movies that i love, and state that he or she directed them, in a certain time or year. I'll make up phony accounts of him or her almsot dying of a drug overdose, and how he or she came out of it alive sober and an inspiration to everybody suffering from excessive drug use. I think about this constantly. It makes me feel at peace, for some odd reason. Recently, i've been thinking about somebody non-existent, who i have created in my head named Dave. I don't really communicate with him in an imaginary friend fashion, but i'm working on creating a life for him. - I really dig independent artists, and it's mostly what i'll listen to. Whenever i listen to the occasional mainstream artist, i'll believe that i have disobeyed some sort of code that i am supposed to follow. I have a clock with the punk rock group "the Ramones" (who i grew up listening to), and whenevr i listen to a more poppy artist, i'll sort of apologize to it. - I sometimes see an article of clothing, or a towel hung up, and i'll believe that it's a person- or some sort of creature at first glance. -I love to be alone! If i'm not in solitude, for at least half of my day, i'll become very upset with people who are trying to be social with me and go hide somewhere. This isn't a phase. I have ALWAYS been this way. - People see me as really eccentric or unusual, and i also see myself in this way. I'm very against the norm, yet i am still obsessed with my appearance. - I feel on edge in social situations,, and i am awful at becoming close with somebody whom i desire to become close with, and creating new friendships. I am absolutely terrified of saying something stupid, or not being able to trust somebody. This probably isn't everything, for i am very forgetful! Ask me questions regarding Schizotypal symptoms and whether or not i experience them, and i will try my best to give you an answer.
purplerain Joined: Jun 3, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-12-09 00:10:42
	I believe all that too if someone is looking at me their staring at me like somethings wrong I'm always afraid that the police r after me I won't look at people I weart sunglasses and a trench coat to be invisible if i go in public, I was diagnosed with pyschosis,bipolor, ocd, and panic disorder I am on lithium klopolin, xanax, and zoloft it helps a little before this I did'nt leave the house for seven months couldn't even be around my kids or noone and i talk to my self and answer my self and i talk to my cat and answer him he's my only friend besides my husband he's not judging me
Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-09 01:11:10
	By the way, i apologize for any poor grammar of which may have been present in my last post. I was very shakey and nervous while typing, for i have never spoken to anybody about ANY of this! For everybody who takes a peek at this, I would really appreciate some sort of advice. Between suspicions of early and mild schizophrenia & a personality disorder, depression, definite pure-o OCD, and not feeling like i can trust anybody with any of this, i've been experiencing an exceptionally tough year. Thanks!
Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-09 01:39:59
	Also, here's my results! Paranoid: High Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: Very High Antisocial: High Borderline: Very High Histrionic: Very High Narcissistic: High Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: High
purplerain Joined: Jun 3, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-12-09 17:48:25
	your crazy were all cray this world makes us crazy, the ozone layer, the media, other humanbeings I could go on and on but I'm no therapist I will pray for you plz pray for me God is the answer!
elena17 Joined: Nov 23, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-12-09 21:46:14
	get tested for schizophrenia
Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-10 00:36:10
	at elena17- You believe that it really might be tha serious?
Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-10 00:36:41
	*that
purplerain Joined: Jun 3, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-12-10 00:48:09
	I"M here if you need to talk just for a while, though about to hit the sheets
purplerain Joined: Jun 3, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-12-10 00:54:41
	yes go get diagnosed by a professional, it only gets worse without medicine and therapy and will destroy your life, I let all my problems build up until my 30s', now look at me scared of the world
elena17 Joined: Nov 23, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-12-10 09:26:17
	i am not a professional, but yes. the extreme paranoia and the thinking you have "special abilities" such as you hearing people's thoughts, or them know what you think are 2 of the huge indicators for schizophrenia. also the imaginary friend thing doesn't help your case, either. you should really go see a doctor about this.
Stealingtomorrow Joined: Dec 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-11 02:24:55
	Well, thanks elena17 and purple rain! Your thoughts on my current condition may not have been exactly what i was hoping to hear, though i'm truly very happy that you didn't "sugar code" anything! On the 'imaginary friend' subject, excluding the other factor that i listed, do you believe that the following (of which i already stated above) might be schizophrenia, or something completely different: "I often take the life of a film maker, and create an imaginary life in my mind, for her/him I'll make a list of movies that i love, and state that he or she directed them, in a certain time or year. I'll make up phony accounts of him or her almsot dying of a drug overdose, and how he or she came out of it alive sober and an inspiration to everybody suffering from excessive drug use. I think about this constantly. It makes me feel at peace, for some odd reason"
elena17 Joined: Nov 23, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-12-11 23:19:27
	Uummm... yes schizophrenia. A lot of disordered people make up stories, but to benefit themselves. For example, if you said I knew steven spielberg back when he was a junkie... (no idea if he ever was btw) it makes you seem impressive. To create an alternate reality solely for yourself seems like a very schizophrenic thing to do. People with that disorder have a hard time seperating fact from fiction and have major fantasy lives. But imaginary friends, talking to inanimate objects, special sensory abilities... all suggest schizophrenia.ppl who have it are known for not being able to live in reality, and are stuck in abstract fantasy. That sounds like where you are headed, so get a doctor.
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