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moonprayer Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-23 16:50:38
	today I was officially diagnosed. my IQ was above average, but not highly. (wich is odd, because i'm known for being clumsy, and dumb) anyway, they said I had mild-severe treats of depression, but because I was experiencing these complaints for like, since I can remember...It was caled diffrent. I don't know the english term... but here they called it "dysthime disorder" it's like a chronic mild depression wich makes you so cold -hearted - numb - careless as I am. I am now on que for a psychiatrist who will give me medication. still, I see nothing on "depression" because every depression test I take says, a little, but not to worry. still I feel empty robotic and lately many times psychotic. so im willing to try medication, I already said I DON'T want emotion stabilasators, that don't seem like a good idea to me. :) but there do exist other meds that are calles "uppers"... we'll see. I just want to be able to look in the mirror, and recognize me as me...that's all
cwschizzy Joined: Jul 20, '10 Status: New User	2010-07-23 22:01:30
	Nifty outlook. I get mild depression sometimes too. I say f--- meds, they mess with your head. I'll never use them.
cwschizzy Joined: Jul 20, '10 Status: New User	2010-07-23 22:02:14
	Nifty outlook. I get mild depression sometimes too. I say f--- meds, they mess with your head. I'll never use them.
moonprayer Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-26 00:14:12
	what is nifty? why do meds mess with your head. If I can live better with meds, I would want to try. now, everything is pointless. mostly im +1... on scale from -10 till +10. +1 is bareable. last year i've been -1. not all too bad :). But nothing seems to make a point, nothing is worth the effort, nothing seems like "fun" nothing makes me feel better. all together, that's what makes me feel worse than -1. I want to lose that.
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-26 05:50:33
	"why do meds mess with your head." Same reason why cocaine or any kind of stimulant does.
cwschizzy Joined: Jul 20, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-07-27 12:25:49
	Nifty means rad, ace, awesome. They mess with your head by making different chemicals levels. Though it technically does fix chemical "imbalances" I don't like meds. I'd recommend you try them though, I felt like you did once. I eventually got over it to an extent, but it took a while.
moonprayer Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-27 13:48:56
	I do believe I have a mild depression, but I believe it's the result of something, and not the cause. All my life I've been bending, bending, and bending to please others, to be flexible as I can bee to do whatever everyone else want's me to do. I never say "no" by lacking an opinion of my own I guess. but now...I've come to a point, where I just got soo far off, I dont recognize myself in the mirror, there's is no low self esteem, there just is none... I exhale, I accomplish things, I am programmed to do what others ask me to... But I don;t live, I am not myself, I have no feelings, not inside, nor to express. that's not all caused by a mild but long lasting depression. I read about asperger's today... My my, it comes very close. it has some things in common with schizoid disorder... so maybe I have a bit of both, maybe it overlaps eachother. but this asperger's thing... it feels like puzzle pieces falling into place, schizoid PD does lay some puzzle pieces in place, but not all... because I do have a social life, and I want to hug my boyfriend. (NOT other people, I loath that) + the fact that I have a boyfriend for six years now, doesn't really fit in with schizoid PD... the search goes on...
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-27 14:03:51
	Many schizoid people are married and have a family. Them having no social life is a symptom of the problem, which is their requirement for a lot of personal space. They are able to have relationships if they can get a lot of alone time inbetween. Asperger people on the other hand do have issues getting relationships because they dont know how to talk to people, and dont get the clue when they are being weird or really annoying.
moonprayer Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-28 01:53:55
	well, in my younger days I was annoying, but I did notice and I could put it to a stop. I am not that anoying anymore, I dont interrupt conversations, I rather not talk at all in conversations. other people annoy me too when they talk too much, especially about themselves. in my relationship I do get a lot of alone time, and I have no social life. I don't want a social life... though, starting a family would never be an option. that takes every personal space and alone time. especially since i'm the woman... so, i still can't say what fits best. because I do get the clue, maybe later than others, but I can adapt...I do bend and bend to please all others. my morality is high, I was a straight A student. do everything they tell me like some lyrics said "traided my emotions for a contract to commit"
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-07-28 06:27:21
	All SPD people are normal when they are younger, the PD begins at early adulthood. Your shrink said you are depressed, but that doesnt just come out of nowhere. Something would have had to happen to bring you to that kind of state. And if you have genetic depression, then you wouldve had it since you were born.
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