I hate people

alisabashaw Joined: Jun 12, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 14:43:28
	I am walking fine line between reality and just losing it completely. I hate all people every single person, which I know is stupid because I am sure there are some nice people out there but I don't care. I worry that I am going to be the person in the bell tower one day. That it's all going to come to a head and make complete sense. It's there I see glimpses of it but my rational is side is just a tad stronger yet. But I worry because the anger and the justification are there and are nagging at me constantly. Will it ever break me completely? I think I just write these random things on this forum because I can't talk to anyone here and I can't find a decent so-called "professional" that actually wants to help me. I get asked "Do you hear voices?" Yeah I hear voices all the time but is it really schizophrenia? or just my inner self talking to myself? How do you tell the difference. but lately I have been hearing actual voices outside of my mind that make me look around for where it came from? What is that all about. Please no nastiness or snide/rude comments. I am on here because I people who understand not people who want to make me feel worse.
Gumba_Gumba Joined: Jun 13, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 16:07:11
	I'd give you a sawn off shotgun, we could go on a rampage together, like Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold. I'm already ready to die.
Shroud Joined: May 9, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-06-14 16:10:55
	What did people do to you to make you hate them all?
alisabashaw Joined: Jun 12, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 19:37:43
	Yeah see I don't know what they did. It's just an inate feeling of hate towards all people. People will screw you every chance they get they will stomp you into the ground until there is nothing left. They don't care about me so why should I care about them. I am sure if a therapist or whatever would stick around long enough we would figure out this all has something to do with something. But I hate people. I have no friends because I feel that they will betray me or get tired of me and hurt me so why even bother. There are very few people that I would save if there was a nuclear bomb about to explode. I could count them on one hand. It's sad I know but it's how I feel deep on the inside
Obsidian Joined: Jan 22, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-06-14 19:47:27
	My view which might be at fault is that every human being is egotistic, most are in more denial than others. But I don't hate them because of it, hate is a strong word. I look down on people for it, of course I myself is included in every human being. Some would call me narcissistic because I look down on everyone, but I wouldn't. Because I don't love myself, I only dislike myself the least. :P
Gumba_Gumba Joined: Jun 13, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 19:53:15
	Yeah people are pretty friggen retarded. I have no friends in real life either, only one online friend. I hate people. Personally I think they all should be shot.
Obsidian Joined: Jan 22, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-06-14 19:55:18
	I'm glad you consider me a friend. :P
alisabashaw Joined: Jun 12, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 20:06:02
	I have no sympathy for any people either. Adult people that is. Children and babies I do feel for because they cannot protect themselves. My husband asks me why I am so hateful. And I do use the word hate because it is HATE. I know its strong but its the only word that fits. I know its not rational and I try to bury it deep in the depths of my body so it just sits there and festers. Do you know I actually fantasize and plan the murder of my enemies?? I mean that's not normal. There are people that wronged my 5 years ago that I still think of torturing. I think about how I would do it, and I wouldn't care if I ended up getting caught. I would make them pay for the wrong they caused on me. I know I am one angry biatch
Obsidian Joined: Jan 22, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-06-14 20:11:16
	The only thing that isn't normal about that is to talk about it. :P
Gumba_Gumba Joined: Jun 13, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-14 20:15:57
	I fantasize about rape and torture all the time. Hey, I'm not alone here. That's a good thing.
odette Joined: Apr 19, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-06-14 20:42:36
	Hmm... I hate no one. Not a single person. I dislike several, favor a few, and could care less about the many. Maybe it's because of my "illness" but I cannot fully understand what is so powerful to fuel you.
moonprayer Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-06-15 09:27:42
	people do a lot to get irritated by them all... at least. especially the fatties, who make excuses of why their so fat, and then they eat a couple of hamburgers, and fries. with LOADS of mayo... yeah right, but it's not the food that makes them fat...
Lectric Joined: Jun 16, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-16 02:00:00
	Theres nothing wrong with hating everyone around you, Especialy when people are so easy to hate. Nobody reads anymore, nobody cares about their mind, our entire culture is based on sex and self-centered thinking. There is a way to fix that though. Change the people you are around and youl prolly end up hating less. Belief comes from thought, and thought comes from experiance. Negative experiance produces negative thought, negative thought produces negative beliefs, and how you believe dictates the types of experiances you generate around you. :)
amcdr Joined: Jun 17, '10 Status: New User	2010-06-17 09:40:06
	It took me 50 years of my life just to figure out that I'm Schizoid. I just thought I was being my own person. It appears that I am a "text book" Schizoid. At this late stage of my life,how could I possibly change?
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-06-17 10:20:49
	Schizoids by definition dont desire to change, or at the least only wanna have a broader emotional capacity.
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