I'm new....I think I might have multiple disorders

Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 10:47:57
	I think, to the core, I have Histrionic Personality Disorder. I am 16, and of course, I am looking for answers. I honestly don't know what I am other than an actor. Even that is a role. The poor, miserable man locked in an inner conflict to last for an eternity. Because he has moved from role to role for so long, he no longer knows himself. How very poetic indeed. I play various roles. Sometimes, I even play them at different times throughout the day. My favorites are the deranged, twisted psycho who runs on pure bloodlust and sadist intent,the fun, lovable and happy-go-lucky kid that can make anyone feel great about themself and make them laugh or smile, the depressed, emo kid in need of attention from his beloved peers, and the seemingly cruel tough guy that has a soft spot only for the his loved ones. I can play plenty of others including the mad genius, the respectable, young man, and the prodigal son. I play these roles to get through social situations and come out with what I want or need. I live to make an impression. My core personality or what's left of it has been numbed by the mulitple roles, but even that seems to be a role in itself, as I said before. It also seems that several of my roles have personality disorders such as Borderline Personality Disorder, Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Antisocial Personality Disorder, Schizoid Personality Disorder (a former role that I dropped due to a decline in interest), and Schizotypal Personality Disorder. My core also seems to have an Anxiety Disorder, for I am breaking out into a sweat just by typing this. I am not sure whether to ask for help or to just live with knowing what's wrong with me. The things I do, say, and wish to do, do not at all bother me. I just know that no ordinary man with proper priorities and such things, is not capable of what I am. It does not at all bother me. I am an abomination, yet I feel no remorse. I prefer it. At times, I do think I would like help, but at this very moment, I want no such thing. Who knows? In the next 5 minutes or so, I may decide that I want help or enter a state of indecision once again.
Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 11:16:20
	no ordinary man with emotional and psychological stabilty*
Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 11:18:12
	no ordinary man with emotional and psychological stabilty*
ireland Joined: May 1, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-11-11 11:26:14
	Sorry,you aint so different as you think you are x
Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 11:30:07
	What the hell do you take me for? You think I'm trying to be different like some pathetic pre-teen trying to escape the conformist mindset by acting different just to be different from the majority? Apparently, you don't know what you're talking about either. Don't comment on my topic. I like getting noticed, but I don't need a know-it-all smartass acting like he knows me.
Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 11:32:36
	Eh...sorry forget it...as unreasonable as it is. I'm kinda shaky right now.
ireland Joined: May 1, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-11-11 11:40:15
	Forgotten.x
Frost888 Joined: Nov 11, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-11 11:41:35
	Thanks....I'm gone...laterz
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