Mild case of HPD-Is it just me?

Cindy Joined: Mar 22, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-03-31 06:30:09
	Ee, you never offended me:) NEVER! The statement made from my experience in Church recently(the quote I gave) was meant to offend church goers from an atheists' point of view(a Harvard man) but rather INSPIRED many to step out of their comfort zones and see who needs love(in the World, out of their gated community) with a gentle touch and guidance to help those in need to find their purpose and happiness. Christians need to stop thinking themselves better and start to touch others for we all(Christians and non-Christians) are bound by our vulnerablilty and weaknesses. ALL. No one is worthy on this Earth. No one is worthy to go to God unless they have Jesus. Having Jesus doesn't make them any more clean, but since Jesus was clean and perfect, His sacrifice and blood coverage is good enough to bring his children(those that accept Him) communion with the Lord. Even the best person on Earth who seems to never make mistakes SINS...everyone is a sinner...everyone!!We cannot get away from it. That is why I say, focus less on your shortcomings when coming to God and more on the love He has to offer you and in time, He will guide your life to wholeness and completelness. YOU ARE HERE ON EARTH FOR A PURPOSE!!! Anyway, I could go on and on with so many stories of how I have fallen in life and fallen hard, and have shame for things I have done and even thought, BUT I have had the Lord in my heart since I was 8!!! The reality is, it took many many years for me to really surrender and change(before I was just an immature saved little girl that was always in trouble)...BUT I was always forgiven because that is what His sacrifice gave me...and the other good stuff...the real changes in our lives sometimes takes time. One example is my son, he is a great guy, but he is immature and disappoints me sometimes. Do I disown because he disapoints me? Heck no!!!He will be my son no matter what in the World he does. We are connected. In time, my son is maturing, and eventually, he will really be the man I have raised him to be, but the love never waned for me, and it didn't wane from my son to me...SEE? God's love is like our love for our children. It isn't f---le, and He actually not only loves us but He likes us, too!!! Really think about seeing the pastor. I mean, you can try and do this on your own, but I am really stressing that there is NO power like the power of Jesus. I will share one story and then I have to get ready for work... When I was married to an abusive man, and I thought I would lose my mind, I went into the pastor's office for counselling. In my mind, I thought"Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall ba added unto you," which I simply was the Bible verse I remembered from Sunday school, nothing more...UNTIL I got home and my mother called,(fortuantely she is a Christian and had moments of actually being motherly to me), and she said, I have been praying for you and God gave me a word and told me to call and tell you about it. I got the word at 1pm(the same time I got the verse in my head by the way)....and she repeated the same verse to me...WORD FOR WORD.God was sending me a promise and it was a miracle and miracles like that rarely happen so blatently in this day and age so I cling to that moment in my life everytime I feel low. After that, I KNEW God would restore my life and was telling me that my ways were wrong(duh)haha, and that going to God for guidance would bring forth fruits of joy and peace to my life...and it took nine years to happen, but God restored me and blessed me beyond all measure I had in MY mind. Count on God and He won't count you out!!Blessings can and will come your way if you ask Jesus into your heart, are repentent of anything you could have done to offend Him and share with others that you are saved. In time, you will be guided. Don't stress too much about shortcomings. I still have them. Haha, We will all sin as long as we have breath on this Earth but the love will overwhelm you and you will become a more whole and happier person and in turn, your child will reap the benefits.The thing about having Jesus, is the Love keeps growing and growing and love is the most healing gift in the World. Love, Cindy
Eeyore Joined: Mar 28, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-04-06 12:18:16
	Good Morning Cindy, I am sincerely grateful for your time, encouragement and most inspiring words of wisdom from your life experience. I have read your response several times and apologise that it has taken me this long to reply. I feel as tho I can appreciate and relate to everything you have said. "Immature saved little girl that was always in trouble" this describes me perfectly to date. I have a better understanding of what you mean by shortcomings and you have helped to re direct my focus. It's not just black or white, that the shades of grey are the ones we as humans must strive hard to achieve; like stepping out of ourselves and reaching out to another. You have given me plenty to ponder and nourishment for the soul. Ee :)
Cindy Joined: Mar 22, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-04-06 19:44:14
	Ee, you make me smile and made my day.I love that you took this time to write me back. My dad had surgery today and I am kind of stressed out. My mom is in a rest home and not able to take care of herself at all. She is completely reliant on nurses to give her round the clock meds and to even feed and bathe her. "Failure to thrive" is what it is called(for mom) and it is hard to watch, so thank you for reading my words and reflecting on them. It made me reread them and reminded me that I am not alone. God bless you, girl, Cindy♥
totallylost Joined: Apr 18, '10 Status: New User	2010-04-18 20:39:49
	Jennicita and Always Knew, Wow, I am not sure if I have a mild case of HPD but the emotional affairs that you guys talked about sounds just like me. Before I had my emotional affair I was so bored and the thought of living a secret life was so exciting for me. I started to dress different and act different. I never wanted to be physical with the man I just wanted to feel loved and have some fun. I know my husband would hate me if he really knew what I did when he wasn't around.
Cindy Joined: Mar 22, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-04-19 04:01:43
	totallylost, just imagine your life without your hubby. Imagine some woman who is waiting for the opportunity to have what you have. That should be your reality check. Never opewn a door for women have a sixth sense about these things and I am sure you would not want to lose the great life you have at home. Don't be a person that makes you feel shame. Seek help with a professional and give your husand that attention that HE deserves.You are in control of your actions, and this is definately a control issue.Good luck.
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