It's my fault I'm losing my bf...I don't want to live anymor

Thread Topic: It's my fault I'm losing my bf...I don't want to live anymor

lia_5472 Joined: Nov 12, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-12 15:30:41
	I have been out of control at least every other week with my boyfriend, when I drink, this past week, I realized that I just dont' want to lose him. I love him too much, but he's tired of my "I'm sorry's"....I have a drinking problem, and I'm finally addressing it, however, he's tired of it and won't give us another shot....I've told him I have a drinking problem and that Im now seeking help...I don't think he cares anymore. We doesn't touch me, or even so much as look at me or address me. He sleeps in another bedroom as well...have I really lost him. I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I just want to die. what now?
deblwk Joined: Sep 7, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-11-12 15:43:32
	I'm so sorry Lia :(....keep addressing your drinking problem. Take care of yourself. Remember their is light at the end of the tunnel but you got to believe and hold on. Also look to your girl friends for support too. If you have some that won't drink around you. Also the withdraw from alcohol could be making you more depressed and/or anxious. Funny thing about alcohol: it can do that on it or going off it. Either way maybe some treatment for the depression and anxiety would be good. There is probably a reason you are drinking in the first place.
lia_5472 Joined: Nov 12, '10 Status: New User	2010-11-12 15:49:06
	wow! you made me cry...lol. Haven't done that in a while. It's difficult living with someone who does't want you anymore, after all the feelings we had at one point. Thank you for the advice.
fantasy Joined: Jul 28, '09 Status: Senior User	2010-11-16 00:45:49
	Wow wtf that was totally inappropriate. (Referring to rude comment above) Please ignore him, because he probably has problems on his own and finds meager relief in trying to hurt other people. I definitely agree you need to address your drinnking problems no matter what, it is not good for anybody. You may or may not get your boyfriend back, but at least you can help prevent something like this happening again in the future. Stop drinking for yourself. And who knows, maybe despite what he says now he will give you another chance once he sees that you are really serious about stopping your alcohol problem. Hope you recover soon, xx
disorderguy Joined: May 5, '09 Status: Admin	2010-11-21 09:22:53
	I deleted the rude comment.
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