scared of persona change and effect on relationship?

anonp_d Joined: Sep 28, '09 Status: New User	2009-09-28 12:27:02
	Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: High Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Low Dependent: Moderate Obsessive-Compulsive: Low those are my results. i posted i this forum because my dilemma seems to fit better. i've been in a relationship for a year now with my partner who recently cheated a few months back, it was just a kiss and a drunken mistake as a result of my own actions making her unhappy. i forgave her for the sake of our relationship because i love her and i want it to work no matter what. however i now find it very difficult to trust her completely, although i truly want to. I constantly seem to be paranoid that something underhand is going on and little things such as not calling when she said she would, being late for things, plans changing and such often make me feel extremely worried to a point of almost a physical feeling in my stomache. the only way i can describe it is extreme anxiety, i also get headaches. i find myself extremely jealous of the time she spends with other people, especially male friends, but even female friends. i also know i cannot talk to her about this as talking about serious issues usually ends up in arguement i ireegularly smoked cannabis for perhaps just over a year, with my usage fluctuating from a joint or 2 a week to doing a quart in a day with a friend, and back again. and i now find i have terrible memory issues, especially under stress or tiredness. infact recently me and my partner were argueing and i found myself losing my train of thought and forgetting the previous few sentences whilst i was still talking. im really stuck and quite scared. im 90% sure the problem lies with me although i should point out that my partner had a terrible home life, was mildly/moderately beaten as a child and could never do anything to please her parents. i find myself in emotional turmoil, which is completely unlike me as i used to be a bit of a jack the lad. the one who liked to joke and have a good time, could be mischievious but always cared for others and showed it. im sorry this is a long read, i feel like i should give all the info i can. i dont know what to do. i feel like my persona has changed and this prompted me to think that perhaps i have a disorder, especially after all the talk of cannabis being detrimental to mental health
Unanswered Thread:    Cyclothymia posted by Darkman33 1 min. ago
anonp_d Joined: Sep 28, '09 Status: New User	2009-09-28 12:29:06
	just to clarify, i no longer use cannabis and have not for a significant amount of time
Jeanine Joined: Nov 2, '09 Status: Junior User	2009-11-28 14:46:07
	Whats the diff betw a drug and med? Meds is good 4 u, it makes u feel better, it heals u. A drug makes u think it heals u, makes u think u feel or cope better, but actually it kills u mentally, physically and spiritualy. U got rid of the one drug now dump ur girlfriend before u go off the deep end. Ur a man and men have the advantage to catch woman, u dnt hav to attract them. Go out and look for someone that knows and values love. U live only once.
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2009-11-28 15:12:11
	Jeanine, you do realize that some psychiatric medicine is closely derived from the very same street drugs, like coke or meth? And it has the exact same effects and consequences? Turn off your TV, seriously.
Delirius Joined: Nov 3, '09 Status: Junior User	2009-11-28 15:17:19
	Haha. Hip I saw a commercial that was like "are your depression meds not working? Well then why not add this one to them? Cause if you add one more you'll be fine
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2009-11-28 15:25:21
	Do they have a kids edition so me and my 5 year old son can get high together? XD
Delirius Joined: Nov 3, '09 Status: Junior User	2009-11-28 15:28:51
	I bet they do! Probably cherry flavored
Hip Joined: Aug 10, '09 Status: Senior User	2009-11-28 15:34:04
	Awesome, i will be doing some shopping today, heh.
Delirius Joined: Nov 3, '09 Status: Junior User	2009-11-28 15:38:20
	Sounds great
Jeanine Joined: Nov 2, '09 Status: Junior User	2009-11-29 04:56:33
	Lol
Unanswered Thread:    my test posted by Mark777 6 hours ago
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