i found a place to rot

FuneralJunkie Joined: Dec 6, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-06 09:57:19
	i don't know what to do anymore... i'm 21, female, and a convicted felon. i did a year and a half in max security for robbery. i thought i was gay for 3 years... and still question it i guess. i have a 25 year old boyfriend who keeps me for... i don't know why he keeps me. it's not the sex. he doesn't... finish with me. he finishes himself. says he has to. i live with him in his mother's guest house and have been living here for... a little more than a month. before that... i dragged him around to different place i had to live... i thought he loved me. sometimes i still think it a little. now i have to stay with him because i have no where else to go. no one to turn to. and it's hell... the sex hurts, and he just yells at me if i try to stop him from hurting me. he b----es at me and blames me for all that goes wrong... and nothing that goes right. i hate myself. i want to just... i wish that there was a god. i lie. i pretend to be into people to get s--- from them. i don't know what i want. and i don't know what i want to talk about either... everything i guess. somebody help me
CosmoAwesmo Joined: Jun 20, '10 Status: Senior User	2010-12-06 10:18:18
	:( I'm here.
j_help Joined: Dec 4, '10 Status: New User	2010-12-06 22:35:23
	Funeral Junkie, I have a feeling you might have borderline personality disorder. Perhaps not, but it seems to fit. I know that having an answer to why I feel the way I do helps me and I have BPD. I hope that you might read up on it and go see a counselor. Even if you don't have any disorder at all, it would be great to go see someone and get help. I'm so sorry to hear about your situation and it hurts to know that someone is suffering like that. No one deserves the way you're living right now. I only hope for the best and that you can get help and find the courage to leave and find a more satisfying and healthy life.
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