Thread Topic: i need help
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st3llarv0id
Joined: Sep 22, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-22 20:35:32 |
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Paranoid: High Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: Low So those were my results for the test...and i guess it kinda answers my questions that ive been asking myself. ive dealt with depression for 6 years, and been in therapy on and off since then. and it feels like things have changed for me within the past year and a half or so, where i become depressed when things arent going well for me in a relationship, or if im not in a relationship at all. within the past year, ive successfully sabotaged my relationships with about 7 different guys, because of the way i am. i cant ever get enough of being around the person, cannot get enough attention from them, cant be told enough that im loved by them. the first time i got broken up with, i was devastated. not only did i burn my bridges by trying to get this person back, i still havent fully recovered from the blow my ego received from the breakup. now, several boyfriends (and breakups) later, im in another relationship, and i fear im making the same mistakes again. he lives down the street from me, and i take it extremely personal if he doesnt want to see me or even just stop by my home to kiss me every day. if he doesnt text me when he wakes up, when he goes to bed, get out of work, goes out, etc... im worrying. if i dont hear "i love you" every couple of hours or so, im thinking im going to get broken up with again, or that he really doesnt like me anymore. and its making my relationship with him so hard, because i am miserable with not feeling unconditionally loved and taken care of, and hes trying to deal with how i am because he loves me, but it makes him annoyed that i dont trust him. i dont know what to do anymore, where to go with this anymore. its hard for me to even focus on college, working, spending time with family, or having friends, because i have this irrational fear of being alone again. it comes to the point where i feel like there isnt anything i can do, and i just feel like there's no point to anything anymore, to living anymore, because im always screwing up, and because im never going to be loved. |
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Unanswered Thread: VRIELLIS PLEASE READ posted by Synapse 13 days ago |
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Dime
Joined: Sep 23, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-23 17:55:19 |
| It sounds like you may be carrying the baggage of those previous relationships into each new one. Try really hard to forget what happened before and concentrate on the new relationship. Don't assume that this one will go wrong before it even gets going or you'll come across as being miserable and not a nice person to be with and that could have the effect of pushing the new boyfriend away from you. In other words, act in a loving way and it'll be reciprocated. Take each day at a time and you'll find it works. Ever heard the saying "we reap what we sow"? If it's the right person you'll go from strength to strength. And hey, I guarantee you ARE loved by your family and true friends! Don't give up, good luck! | |
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Dime
Joined: Sep 23, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-23 17:57:05 |
| It sounds like you may be carrying the baggage of those previous relationships into each new one. Try really hard to forget what happened before and concentrate on the new relationship. Don't assume that this one will go wrong before it even gets going or you'll come across as being miserable and not a nice person to be with and that could have the effect of pushing the new boyfriend away from you. In other words, act in a loving way and it'll be reciprocated. Take each day at a time and you'll find it works. Ever heard the saying "we reap what we sow"? If it's the right person you'll go from strength to strength. And hey, I guarantee you ARE loved by your family and true friends! Don't give up, good luck! | |
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