Thread Topic: Borderline Personality Disorder and Drug / Alcohol Abuse
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Annette
Joined: Dec 19, '09
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2009-12-19 03:48:52 |
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To Rubaya - I have my own theory on what causes BPD....the total inability of certain parents to teach or allow their children to express emotions in a healthy way. Thats what did it for me anyway...in a nutshell. To the OP - I have been a massive binge drinker for 25yrs. My best friend died of alcoholism related causes 3 years ago. I expect to succumb to my alcoholism withing 10yrs at most. Guess I have accepted it these days. I struggled with it for a long time...also struggled with cutting and toxic relationships and many other issues that come with being "wasted"....these days I sit around, watch DVDs and sort of wait for the end to come. It's not so bad. Actually in surrendering I have found a strange freedom. Just explaining myself, not condoning this to anyone...sorry. :) |
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Unanswered Thread: Nothing wrong with paranoia. posted by IntroduckToni 4 hours ago |
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Crazychick
Joined: Dec 30, '09
Status: New User |
2009-12-30 12:01:16 |
| Waiting to go into rehab. | |
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Whateverme
Joined: Dec 30, '09
Status: New User |
2009-12-30 16:04:31 |
| Kinda lost here. Had a hard time in and out of teraphy as a teen. I'm 45 now and things haven't got anyt easier. Just the idea of waking up the next morning scares the s... out of me. No help where I live. | |
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carlin7386
Joined: Dec 15, '09
Status: New User |
2010-01-05 11:43:08 |
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carlin7386
Joined: Dec 15, '09
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2010-01-05 11:44:03 |
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thanx for sharing... ---------- [no urls] |
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wtfkelsi
Joined: Jan 8, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-08 16:13:19 |
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Anyone in Oregon? jw... Disorders: Borderline Histrionic Narcissistic Avoidant Dependent Obsessive-Compulsive And yes I do dabble in the drugs & booze (dont we all...).... myspace.com/wtfkelsi Boredom Becomes me.... (just tweaking around on cpu) ywn |
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KEEPH0lDiNG0N
Joined: Dec 18, '09
Status: Junior User |
2010-01-08 21:46:23 |
| I try to go to my cousins as much as possible she has alott of friends that live with her adn they all use to cut theirselves.About weekend there drinking and smoking pot i love to be drunk and high at the same time:) they smoke pot just about everyday sometimes i wish i could just live there and live like them ya know always high=always happier.I wouldn't nessecarily call myself addicted to anythinf except cigarettes & cutting i constantly steal cigarettes from my mom but then again maybe i am addicted to all of it:/ | |
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shell68
Joined: Jan 12, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-12 15:25:43 |
| i was bullied all through school as i was a loner and allways felt different from everyone else. i started self harmng and self medicating by the age of 15. i was finaly diagnosed last year at the age of 40 with bpd and bipolar. i had never heard of either.the professionals put all my problems down 2 alchol even thoug i nearly starved and drank myself 2 death. thank god 4 more awareness of mental health. they were ignorant in the 80s. | |
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Annette
Joined: Dec 19, '09
Status: Junior User |
2010-01-12 15:34:44 |
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^ Very true about the 80's. Things like social anxiety were only starting to be named then. A lot of finger pointing and judgements because of conditions being misunderstood then too. I hope having a diagnosis is of help to you shell. |
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lights_rage
Joined: Jan 18, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-18 23:37:02 |
| I used alcohol for a short time, i felt that i wasnt an alcoholic hell, i didnt blackout somewhere get arrested or any of that stuff. I ended up out of school homeless got my first apt two hours from my family and then started drinkin. Now i am a smoker, and it calms me down that and an addiction to food. When i get moody i eat or smoke. now if i get moody and dont have a cig around i start screaming and alienating my friends. I don't want to live like this, I am morbidly overweight blind have bipolar disorder i dont want to die at 24 or 25 I cant stand it anymore, but getting in to dialectical behavioral therapy is not working out here because no one gives a damn about the poor mentally ill. No one gives a s---, and it f---ing kills me. Medicaid wont cover dbt at a lot of the places that would take it if the state would pay them, because they dont have some sort of certification or some such s---, so the poor mentally ill are screwed. thats why i am giving up more independence to move and get back to dbt in my home town. I was in it but homeless so moved a couple hours away. I hate my life! | |
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Izdigger
Joined: Jan 19, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-19 04:45:50 |
| Having been suspected of being BPD for some time by close ones, I'm currently in a period where I have now been drinking close to 15-18 cans of beer a day, for about two months. Previously I smoked marihuana several times a week. | |
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michael40
Joined: Jan 19, '10
Status: New User |
2010-01-19 19:12:28 |
| hey everyone im new to this | |
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PlayMagicBus
Joined: Feb 8, '10
Status: New User |
2010-02-08 15:37:11 |
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Borderline personality and alcohol/drugs I can't leave the house without having a drink |
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lostnotfound
Joined: Feb 9, '10
Status: New User |
2010-02-09 14:37:18 |
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I have problems with self-esteem for a long time. I've recently lost my business and had a relationship go belly up at the same time. I feel lost and worthless. Tried suicde severl times, but it's just one more thing I can't do right. My problems with alcohol are legendary, but AA ws never good fit for me. ny suggestions? |
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Obsidian
Joined: Jan 22, '10
Status: Junior User |
2010-02-09 14:40:46 |
| Start over and rebuild your life. | |
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