Thread Topic: Let's talk real problems for a moment...
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nicotine_fiend
Joined: Oct 2, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 21:07:55 |
| lol well its not bad feelings i harbor because i don't think synapse is a horrible person.. he just likes to stir the pot. but if someone puts up a post that says to share your problems, i don't think that its necessary to say "well, you don't have real problems" because i'll say f--- off you have no idea who i am or what i've been through because even though my post is quite long, i still am not able to articulate myself as well as i would like to. lol. | |
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Unanswered Thread: No Subject posted by alwaysknew 19 hours ago |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 21:12:11 |
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No I totally understand where your coming from. I mean reading my own I'm like that's not that bad. I love raves :) |
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nicotine_fiend
Joined: Oct 2, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 21:14:32 |
| yeah, me too. but raves got me in trouble. lolz. | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 21:20:17 |
| Yea I bet. I've never been to an illegal one and I'm not addicted to anything lol. But ecstacy is damn good | |
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unblissful
Joined: Nov 5, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-09 21:28:41 |
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nicotine fiend i can so relate to u.. i was also un-popular at school, i never felt i fit in anywhere or with anyone. i wasnt 'cool' enough to hang in that crowd and all those girls were extremly nasty and that wasnt me but i was the sit around the corner and have i ciggie and joint type.. unlike u tho i came from a poor background but couldnt even fit in with the other poor smoker types because they were generally into having punch-ups and that kind of thing and that isnt me either. i dropped out of school wen i was 15 and started up a relationship with a guy that was physically abusive but we were both on a drug binge then so i stupidly stayed in the relationship in a drugged and drunken haze. i tried to hide everything from my mum (had also started cutting at this time) but she saw all the bruises and cuts on me one day when i let my gaurd down and said it was either him or my family. after a lot of effort and trouble i left him.. i didnt get of the drug wagon tho, if anything i was worse and still cutting alot until i finally ended up in hospital. after this i got myself of the hard drugs (like u still smoked pot and drank) but i managed to refrain from cutting. fast forward a couple of years (and alot of other sh-- i wont go into) to last year and i was 21, would get thru my days in a cloud of green smoke and endless amounts of scotch until i found out i was pregnant to my boyfriend who id only been with for a month.. hes a beautiful guy and we decided to keep the baby, little did i no how hard it was going to be getting of the pot and booze tho.. i realized for the past 6 years it was all i had done and all i had known and being straight was a whole new experience. i had no idea who i actually was and how to cope with any kind of emotion.. it used to be if i was happy,sad,angry anything i would drink to celebrate or drown my sorrows... all my so-called friends then vanished too, i was no longer out and about running amuck so apparently i was not worth knowing.. if it wasnt for my boyfriend and his support i have no idea how i wouldve gotten thru. im now 22 (almost 23) with a 7 month old baby and my life would be complete if it wasnt for my stupid head and lack of control over my emotions. i also havnt been diagnosed as yet but am working up the balls to actually going to see someone - as soon as i can say out loud that i have a problem... ive also spent hours with my partner reading info on what could be wrong with me and we both found bpd to be the one that fits. not really sure where to go from here but i no that i have to do something before i completly destroy my relationship and everything thats important to me.... as for an opinion i dont think i have one but i think i have a small understanding of where your coming from and how hard it is trying to be social wen your of the drugs and then on top of it realizing that thats not the only problem but theres actually a REAL problem thats just been caught up in the haze for so long... |
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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Senior User |
2009-11-09 23:25:57 |
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Synapse, you should visit a methadone clinic if you wanna get off the painkillers. Dont worry, they wont give you s---/lock you up or whatever, theyll just help you. Methadones a motherf---ing guardian angel when it comes to kicking off painkillers. The only thing that sucks is the prolonged withdrawal, though it takes a long time before you get there, and the staff know what theyre doing. They wont let you burn like that. I used it to get off a couple homebrewn psychotropics and sedatives, and i'm glad I did it before I managed to f--- myself up hardcore like an idiot who slams his first dose. And delirius "Another thing is that ive had incest with my cousin. It happened a few years ago and i regret it everyday of my life. It didnt just one day happen though, ive had another cousin 5 years old than me "teach" me what sex was when i was 6. And when i was 5-8 random sexual things happened to me that i dont feel comfortable talking about." Shut the f--- up dude, p---- is pussy. As long as shes not your sister, its fine. Besides, you were just a kid, so do me a favor and dont give yourself too much s---. |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 23:32:45 |
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Ok hip your gonna piss me off I didn't post it so that you or anyone else could post you goddamn views about my life. You can go f--- yourself |
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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Senior User |
2009-11-09 23:36:16 |
| Yeah whatever. | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-09 23:38:52 |
| Yea blow it off you big pussy. Just like the rest of your life. | |
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Synapse
Joined: Oct 24, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-10 06:04:31 |
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Am I the only one that got aroused by Delirius' story? Haha no seriously guys great, keep em coming. |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-10 09:16:39 |
| What the f--- is you peoples problem, you asked me to post synapse and then you make fun of me? | |
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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Senior User |
2009-11-10 11:24:20 |
| Delirius, i'd think twice about what I post on a public forum. Ive got f---ed up stories and you know what? They are for me to know only. | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-10 11:49:25 |
| I didnt post a story and you know what i dont give a f--- what your stories are. | |
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hopscotch
Joined: Sep 8, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-10 22:26:17 |
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guys calm down please.. there is no point of attacking each other and this is meant to be a helpful site... please just stop with all the negativity, it gets us nowhere. |
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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Senior User |
2009-11-10 22:55:25 |
| Dude if you're that disturbed by your older cousin buggering you with a strap-on or something :D you probably should keep that s--- to yourself. | |
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