Do you keep yourself company?

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jujupope
Joined: Nov 6, '09
Status: New User
2009-11-06 12:40:51
I talk about the actions of the past, an see how weird Iam. It is almost overwheling how screwed up Iam as I look at myself. Why me? There seems no answer as to why it's this way. Iam embarrassed foe me....
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   VRIELLIS PLEASE READ posted by Synapse 13 days ago
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-06 13:09:41
Delirius; awesome, proper wanna hear you talk now! Haha nar I don't mean proper strong. Your proper awesome :) xx
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-06 13:19:33
I like the word awesome and ammmaaaazin!!
Haha
I'm in such a good mood. The girl I like has just asked me to go to Alton towers to see pink with her!!!!!! How ammmaaazin is that, pink and her!!!!! Wow hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehr


Yyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeesssssss :D :D :D
>.< yey xxxxxxxx
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-06 13:50:27
N now i'm pissed off cus I'm not allowed to go!!!!!!
WTF why!!!
I'll be f---in 16 what the f---! Why the hell dose it matter if I go on a train at 1 am I'll be f---in fine urgh

now I'm gunna go cut cus I have no life!!! Controling mum
can't do what my friends do, can't b with anyone cus I'm not allowed to do owt
Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User
2009-11-06 13:57:27
Dont cut plz.

Hmm you like the word amazing and awesome? lol those are everyday words here, i say awesome all the time
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-06 13:59:18
I say em all the time too, iv been told I talk like an American ha!
n it's ammmaaazin lol
n I have too, I can't stand it anymore! Been a month since I did itt
nicotine_fiend
Joined: Oct 2, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-06 14:43:29
i soooo talk to myself. and i wonder why i can't keep a social life. is it because when i'm around actual people i zone out because i'm carrying on a conversation in my head?
Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User
2009-11-06 14:45:26
Do something else to keep your attention or sneak out

Idk but thats exactly wht i do
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-07 02:36:28
I do the zonein out thing, and have a convo with myself haha, what can I say I'm great company :) joke
haha n then people get mad at me and I have no idea what's happened :) aha well funny
xxx
elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
Status: Senior User
2009-11-07 03:25:06
i talk to myself all the time. and i only converse in english, though it is not my native language. coz it elevates my mood n confidence. i will motivate myself when i need motivation n scold myself when i do something stupid or bad.

shades of gray,
i understand the part "Controling mum
can't do what my friends do, can't b with anyone cus I'm not allowed to do" very well. i grew up in that environment. i was never allowed to do anything my friends do. sucks.. so i got away at age of 24 to find my freedom. but u r 16..so, i guess u got to wait a little more..
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-07 05:36:18
Ayee, proper wired. And I don't want to let people know my problems, friends I mean. Cus I see this as my problem and don't want to put it on them.
I also have cystic fibrosis, so I'm really really scared that at the age of like 25-30 I'll be I'll and end up having to practicly live in hospital. So no freedom for meee :(
so I want to do eberythin early, I wannafall in love now so the person may love me enough to stay with me if that happened,
stupid?
Ooh n I heard avarage life exspectancy is 37 :/
good job I don't wanna be 40 ey? Haha :)
xxxx
K8bpd
Joined: Oct 25, '09
Status: New User
2009-11-07 08:49:15
I do everything alone now since my cutting scared off my only friend. I drink alone smoke alone and I do have many conversations with myself in my head!
stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-07 09:25:26
hey. I also talk in my head but i'm sure lots of us do. I talk about how stupid i was that day or how i could have improved a situation that i didn't handle well. or i talk while i'm walking, out loud sometimes lol! just about anything or everything. feel like a right wierdo now lol! it helps though makes me think more clearly. i also love pink shades of gray. She is fab and a great performer. My sis went to c her. She said it was amazing. Sorry don't mean to make you feel worse. they'll be other concerts though. big hug.xxxx
shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-07 09:45:10
Seen her once, two weeks ago on Wednesday it was :D it was brill,
it was
more the fact that the person I like asked me to go
shhh wel
stephie
Joined: Oct 15, '09
Status: Junior User
2009-11-07 15:11:38
awww bless ya. Can you meet up with this person again? on a different day? good luck.xx
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   OCD Bracelet Fund Raiser posted by vbaz 34 days ago
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