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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-02 10:07:03 |
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I'm so scared at the minuite, Im ok one minuite and the next I break down and cry. I feel like I have noone like I'm the only person in the world who's caring and senstive, it's like noone gives a s--- about me or anything I do or feel. Sometimes I feel really close to people and then the next day it's like they wouldn't give a crap if I was dead. I think Ill be ok alone but then something happens and it makes me relise Im not ok alone, I need someone to trust, someone to let me know Im wanted and someone I can be vunrble around. I usto think I was strong and independent but now I relise I'm not, and I'm totalu dependent on my best friend who I go too for advise and gidence. I usto like her but now I see her as a mentor, she looks out for me, helps me. She's a year older thane ani feel safe but equil around her at the same time. There is someone I like that iv already said in another thread but I really want her to ne happy, I want to keep her safe and look after her and it really hurts that I can't. I love her so much. I'm obsesed over my weight too, I think i'm horrbly fat even when people tell me i'm not. I weigh 10 stone, I'm 15 and about 5.7 so I dunno, I hate the way I look. I'm quite butch and I look abut like a lad, but still I cry when I look in the mirror. I self harm I hate myself that much, iv made myself sick and at the minuite I cry over everything. I hear voices too, in my head I can't make sense of anything that's going on, I zone out all the time and when I get back to realty I don't know what's gone on, the voices drive me mad, ATM I can stop them of there not too bad but I don't know how much longer I can hang on, I cut myself to concentrate the pain but that didn't always work an I have to cause myself more pain to feel anything at all yo emo dude, any advice mannn? Haha :/ |
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Unanswered Thread: What to do?! posted by Jeanine 2 hours ago |
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freudgirl
Joined: Nov 2, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-02 11:49:52 |
| talk to a guidance counselor for help. they don't judge you and are very easy to talk to. often they will give you their number so you always have someone to call if you ever feel alone or just want someone to talk to. it is a normal thing at your age for you to feel the way you do and it will pass with time. you need to remember that you are a beautiful person, and worthwhile. if you have thoughts of suicide, keep a suicide hotline number with you at all times and call if you feel like that. | |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-02 14:18:22 |
| I can't talk to people about it, I mean I'm only 15 and I feel so f---ing skewed up!!! | |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-02 15:53:55 |
| I really need help please please please, I think I'm gunna do it. I can't stop myself .... | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-02 19:22:35 |
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I'm serious try talking to a counselor, they are usually really nice. They will ask questions and have a conversation so you don't feel awkward at all. And try talking to your friend! Obviously she likes you a lot as well, she probably wants to help you. Please please never give up in life, even if it's only for a single person, think how hurt your best friend would be. I'm sure you're a wonderful person both inside and outside. |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 09:24:27 |
| Sorry guys | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 09:27:28 |
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Please don't do anything drastic :( We all care about you. I don't want you to die |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-05 09:28:51 |
| Hes right we dont want anything bad to happen to you | |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 11:55:52 |
| Why, what's the point | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 12:46:40 |
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Delirius: I'm a "she" if you were indeed referring to me. Shades of gray: Do you want us to die? |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-05 13:05:27 |
| Um yes i was and im sorry | |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 13:16:58 |
| lol it okay o.O do I sound masculine or is it just your sexism acting up? just curious | |
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Delirius
Joined: Nov 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-11-05 13:20:01 |
| Its my sexism acting up | |
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shades of gray
Joined: Oct 23, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-11-05 13:20:14 |
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No corse I don't ahh ok, clever and I really want to cut, sat holding a knife. What do I do :s help |
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Unanswered Thread: VRIELLIS PLEASE READ posted by Synapse 14 days ago |
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