Thread Topic: Borderline - Cutting Yourself
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elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-08 19:06:21 |
| i really wish i cud cut. because i am worth nothing, always make other people's life miserable but i don't have physical evidence saying i might have bpd.by not having any evidence, i just look stupid, eventhough all my other symptoms fit. i have done so much damage to my husband.my husband is so kind to me but i repeatatively hurt him for no reason. of course i have suicidal thoughts. i would imagine myself jumping off buildings or stabbing myself or hanging myself or sometimes while driving, i would drive recklessly so that i meet an accident and die on spot..but i just imagine it..i really wish i cud cut myself | |
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Unanswered Thread: Nuclear Apocalypse posted by Gumba Gumba 12 hours ago |
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fantasy
Joined: Jul 28, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-09 13:12:18 |
| elisafauzana: You are NOT worthless you are NOT stupid ... I can think of a billion people that are probably a lot more worthless and stupid than you are. I know people say cutting is bad but it really helped me so I can't say that ... I don't want to be a hypocrite but I don't want you to die, so I'll say this, if you really want to cut urself but you're scared of blood you can do alternatiev ways of hurting yourself, but don't kill urself until you're absolutely SURE things can't get worse... hang on for now, okay, not all hope can be gone. | |
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iwanttobeloved
Joined: Sep 12, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-12 16:52:44 |
| Hi everyone. I have never cut myself befor, but I feel like I have to. I want to know how so I can. I've heard that it helps you. I'm constantly feeling like I'm alone in a world that no one wants to be apart of. My family thinks I make excuses that something is wrong with me, but there is something wrong with me. My jaw and back and knees hurt everyday. I skip my lunch class at school so I can go to the bathroom and cry. It hurts so bad. No one wants to listen to me. And I have this dream of acting. I want to so bad. But my family doesn't think I'm good enough. I always feel like I dont fit in. So will someone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE help me. It would mean so much if someone could tell me how to cut myself. At least it will be one person that cares about me :( | |
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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-12 19:50:52 |
| Jaw and knee joint pain is not something you can dismiss as a personality disorder. Why dont you see a doctor and get cured? Jeez. | |
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Vulpini
Joined: Sep 14, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-14 05:09:21 |
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I cut for a few reasons; 1) I feel there is something in my blood/under my skin and the only way I can get rid of it is to cut it out. 2) To relieve my own pressure 3) To punish myself 4) To make the outside look how the inside feels |
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elisafauzana
Joined: Aug 27, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-09-14 07:35:29 |
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hi fantasy, this might be delayed response, but i just read your good advise on my suicidal thoughts. Due to this thread has got overwhelming response that it has gone till page 10, i had difficulty in searching back where my post n reply to it has gone. the other day i was so sad n tried to cut myself, because my husband said he can't live with his newly wed wife because he can only love me n no one else. i was damn guilty how cud i have cheated this man n hoe cud i have tried to leave him for no reason? i pressed d knife but just could do it. it cudn't penetrate. so finally i scratched myself till bleed. it was quite satisfying, though i feel it is not enuff to compensate to whatever i have done to my husband. today i received a call saying my permenant residency application in canada has been finalised n go to the embassy for issuance of visa to enable me n my son go. thank you very much, fantasy, for your good advises. yes, not all hope can be gone. i have to keep on count the blessings.. God has been lenient to me despite all my wrong doings. |
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princess
Joined: Sep 16, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-16 07:24:03 |
| I agree with what others have said but for the main reason i cut is to gain some sort of control. When i feel everything is getting to much and the world is moving to fast. I can't breath and i feel like i am drowning by cutting it is something i am doing. something i am not being made to do and have to do its a choice.Although i know its wrong it is what brings me back to reality when i feel like my head is about to explode. Everyones reasons are different. Everyone has there own form of control/ realease. Weather it be cutting, smoking, drinking, or chocolate. As long as you have found your coping method and it works for you what is the harm? | |
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SIBAKA
Joined: Sep 25, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-25 02:15:34 |
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I CUT MYSELF BECAUSE EVERYDAY I FEEL NUMB, LIKE DEAD... THATS THE ONLY WAY I CAN BRING MYSELF TO LIFE AND FEEL ALIVE |
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SIBAKA
Joined: Sep 25, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-25 02:34:54 |
| i was reading and i noticed i never was abused, molested, anything my parents got divorce but thats it i dont know why i feel so miserable, sad , dead, maybe im just sick i never looked for help, i tried to kill myself when i was 14 ( i been depressed since then) and no one never helped me i was an alcoholic, miss school, and i was just kid my mom just said i was a trouble-maker withouth seeing what the problem was, im 21 i have been living like this since then cutting,drinking, starving myself, feeling death, my parents tell me everyone has issues, i wish them to look at my scars,my arms, my legs,my left wrist... i know everyone has issues,but not all the people finds relief in a razor like me | |
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SIBAKA
Joined: Sep 25, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-25 02:38:20 |
| i was reading and i noticed i never was abused, molested, anything my parents got divorce but thats it i dont know why i feel so miserable, sad , dead, maybe im just sick i never looked for help, i tried to kill myself when i was 14 ( i been depressed since then) and no one never helped me i was an alcoholic, missed school several days a week, and i was just kid my mom just said i was a trouble-maker withouth seeing what the problem was, im 21 now and i have been living like this since then cutting,drinking, starving myself, feeling death, my parents tell me everyone has issues, i wish them to look at my scars,my arms, my legs,my left wrist... i know everyone has issues,but not all the people finds relief in a razor like me | |
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foreverforgotten
Joined: Sep 28, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-28 20:05:38 |
| i cut myself because its a way of relief. when i cut i forget everything around me. all the pain, hurt, and dissapointment. i can't even feel the pain of the blade. its like i'm numb. then i see the blood and its like i'm realizing i'm alive, again. | |
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Whatthepuck
Joined: Sep 30, '09
Status: New User |
2009-09-30 17:34:22 |
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Cutting is a way to releas ( sorry for spelling that wrong) stress. I fist started cutting myself because I was so angry...I started and I got hooked it's like a drug that way one you start you can't stop... Cutting is the thing that calms me down as for many people.... Some people do it for the pain or to do it so they bleed I've even heard about some cutting themselves so that they pass out some people like the reactions from other people give.... For me I just liketo see the blood and I like to rub my fingers over the scabs from the cuts because it feels so cool... I wouldn't recomend cutting cause like I said it is really addicting and eventualy if you don't have kids already your kids might ask you why you have a bunch of scars all over your body.... If you don't do it allready don't do it for the reassins I have told you above and because if you do it then you do stop you will have a bunch of scars that you can't get rid of |
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melen
Joined: Oct 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-03 01:02:41 |
| I want to freaking cut myself 'cause I am now in my mania time of bipolar dissorder and I need a release but I can't cut myself, I know if I do it all this that I am feeling it'd go away, how can I do it... | |
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rainbows00
Joined: Oct 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-03 22:49:41 |
| i just started and I don't even bleed. but you do it becuase your disgusted with yourself and you feel unloved and worthless and left out. when i cut or "scrath" or whatever you wanna call it, it makes you not have to actually deal with it. it's hard to explain. but i don't know.. | |
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rainbows00
Joined: Oct 3, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-03 22:52:10 |
| and you compare yourself to other people and everyone just seems better than you are, so I use a thumb tack and almost carve a scartch onto the tops of my wrist and it still leaves a mark and has the same effect just not as messy i guess.. ugh i hate myself | |
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