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Youmessedmeup Joined: Jul 22, '10 Status: Junior User	2010-08-03 10:08:28
	Aww I'm sorry friend!! I carve stars. All over.
california Joined: Aug 2, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 10:17:41
	It almost seems like cutting has become my friend and I need it. I actually haven't cut since april and its been horrible. I know that I don't have the will power to stop forever but I want a normal life so bad. And even though I quit I still burn, punch myself, and bite holes in my lips. Will I ever be fixed?
hasntcrackedyet Joined: Aug 3, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 16:51:59
	I dont like to cut. Really. I guess I could have depression. Or not. I like the way the scars look and when I'm sad, I lose controll and just cut. My parents pressue me to do so much, and sometimes they don't care. My dad hits me sometimes, but only when I'm disrepectful or mean to my sister. I feel like no-one cares about me, and the fact that they actually do makes me hate myself more. I'm overweight, but not much. Socially, I'm doing pretty good, with lots of popular friends and lots of nerdy friends. My parents have no idea what I'm going through right now and they don't care about me. I play two instraments, have Chinese School, and I'm in six school clubs. I am an over acheiver. I read that some over acheivers cut...anyone else out there like me? Instead of cutting, I hit myself, mostly slapping myself or slamming my head against a wall. It sounds silly, but I don't like to cut and it's just a better way to feel that pain. I'm terrified of the day I crack and commit suicide.
california Joined: Aug 2, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 21:28:36
	Inadaze: I totally get that, my therapist kept asking me what my triggers were and I have no idea. I cut when I'm sad, happy, lonely, or bored. I don't usually have a distict reason I just do it when I feel like it. Cutting was such a normal thing it was like taking a shower, there was no particular reason I just did it because it needed to be done. Sometimes I injufre myself and don't even realize I'm doing it. So I guess I don't have a trigger
chloethedeadgurl Joined: Jul 27, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 22:15:01
	california, i feel ur pain i never like to cut myself once i need to do it sevral times and yes its horible thinking i need abot 30 cut on my shomich .
aimlesslylost Joined: Jul 21, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 22:41:19
	YouMessedMeUp: Sorry I told u to tell ur story even though i haven't been on in a long time. but wow that's really deep and i can sort of relate in the area about thinking about things all the time. i think about things like love all the time (usually the past thought) and yeah, cutting is always on my mind. but don't be scared. cuz at least u found this website and there are some decent people here. maybe u can get some answers or help whenever ur scared?
aimlesslylost Joined: Jul 21, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 22:43:52
	oh, and i tried telling my friends before. they told me to stop and i did for a while, but then i went right back on to doing it again. the sad thing is the girl who calls herself my best friend knows that i do it but she doesn't say anything unless someone else notices it first. then she acts surprised. but yeah, i'm really good at hiding the cuts these days
aimlesslylost Joined: Jul 21, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-03 22:52:35
	hasntcrackedyet: I'm like u in a way cuz i'm an overachiever--and i guess it's true that at least some overachievers do cut themselves. and it sucks when u realize people care about you cuz then u feel guilty and more depressed that u accused them of not caring. i think about suicide every so often. but i'm afraid of cracking too.
morbid_kitten Joined: Aug 4, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-04 22:03:28
	i do it because, just like a person does their first like of cocaine, it gives me an amazing high. its pure ecstasy. it feels amazing. it is a reminder of all the things i have done too. after feeling like s--- or doing something "bad" or just feeling terrible, i cry while cutting myself and then it feels like a weight is lifted. have cut my arms, hips, ribs, thighs, back, neck, cigarette burns, electric drills, plastic knives, punching walls, mirrors, windows,and cutting myself against the glass.being tied up beat up and humiliated, cut, and spat at. it just feels so good. i dont know, theres more but eh. its just all psychological, u can black pain and make it feel good.
emmzxyzzy Joined: Aug 7, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-07 01:23:15
	because it makes everything better, and its so easy. and its not like you can stop it anyways. not that i really want to..i started in like the 5th grade lol. good times(:
Anguish Joined: Aug 7, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-07 06:23:16
	I never really cut because it just doesn't help. But I have OD'd, and I remember one OD that was NOT fun, had to stay in the hospital overnite and felt utterly miserable. But the next day when I was released from the hospital to go home, I was suddenly euphoric--just out of the blue! It was wonderful--for about two weeks (a lifetime for me!) I was happy, light-hearted, and completely free from ALL worry, anxiety, depression or any other negative emotion--quite a trick when you have depression, Borderline PD, OCD and who knows what else!!! Sadly the wonderful feelings eventually went away :-( , but if cutting makes you feel that way, I can totally understand it!!!
EndlessTears Joined: Aug 9, '10 Status: New User	2010-08-09 09:03:43
	I love the feel of it...and i love seeing the blood. I never really had anything bad happen to me...but anytime im stressed out i cut. it can be quite calming. i tend to cry alot for no reason most of the time so i cut then to.
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