Thread Topic: I really need help figuring out my disorders.
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Ineloquence
Joined: Aug 27, '09
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2009-08-27 21:42:34 |
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I need some help figuring out what disorders i may have, and if i should go to a psychologist. I really am not sure if a psychologist can help me. I guess I'll start off with the fact that i severely over think everything. To be more specific about where the problem in that is, I constantly think people are talking about me or hate me or even possible are planning things against me all the time. Even around friends I think they are talking about me behind my back, even though its obvious they aren't. I also think no one likes me at all and constantly I am scared to interact with people in person and a lot of times even online. I am very very very concerned about my appearance at all times. I won't go outside if i even look like something isn't right with me. If my hair won't comb right i won't go outside until it looks better and i won't go outside with any old clothes or clothes with even just a spot on them. Sometimes ( like this summer ) I stay in for months because i don't have new clothes or totally clean clothes to wear. Even sometimes I will buy clothes that make me look good some would say, but I am worried that they will make me look like a dork or something so i stay inside. I will a lot of times during this period hide from everyone except for the people I live with. Also I have very low self esteem and sometimes I'm scared to do stuff because I totally doubt myself. I know that I can probably do it, but I just can't see myself able to do it or don't want to ( recently i quit a job because of this ). I can't talk to girls at all because of this shyness and low self esteem, as well as ordering food in rare occasions. When it comes to me and girls, or even just anyone. I believe I look weird or ugly and just don't want to be seen by anyone and feel embarrassed of myself. I feel so lonely all the times and deeply want a relationship, but am scared to find someone. The only time i have ever thought of suicide was when i was taking a new medication when i was a kid. I had a girlfriend then, she told me to stop taking the medication. After i stopped taking them I wasn't suicidal anymore. I would constantly ask her if she loved me or felt sorry for me, she always told me she really loved me even though i seemed not to believe it. Deep in my brain i knew she really did, but couldn't figure out why someone would love me. I smoked a lot of weed since i was 13 as it seemed to calm what i would call my "anxiety" and also made me not care as much which helped me live with myself. I haven't quit since except once for 2 months. My girlfriend eventually broke up with me because of my smoking, but also said it was because i wouldn't tell her anything. I think after that my illness got incredibly worse. I immediately separated myself from all my friend and her, soon after i figured i could never have her back. I then found new friends and barely spoke to the others. Here is my test thing that i took on this site. Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: Moderate Schizotypal: High Antisocial: Low Borderline: Moderate Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: High Dependent: High Obsessive-Compulsive: High Please i desperately need help from someone. If you can't seem to figure out whats wrong with me besides the obvious, do you think i should see a psychiatrist or psychologist or whatever? I'm really not sure what to do, but i need to start fixing this before my life completely goes down the drain. |
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Unanswered Thread: Histrionic posted by hello123 1 hour ago |
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TimArends
Joined: Aug 19, '09
Status: New User |
2009-08-28 09:54:58 |
| Hello, I'm not a psychologist, but from reading your post, it does sound like you have some tendencies towards paranoia. Not totally, because you know that your feelings are irrational, but you seem to have obsessive thoughts in that direction. It sounds as if you are overly self-conscious, if you won't go outdoors unless every hair is in place and your clothes are perfect. With all the things you name, I would say psychological counseling would be in order. Probably they will want you to get off the pot, that might be a good idea anyway, and it is probably a drain on your finances. I would say tackle things one issue at a time on the forums, as it is hard to address multiple issues all at once. I wish you luck! | |
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Ineloquence
Joined: Aug 27, '09
Status: New User |
2009-08-28 17:53:18 |
| Ty for the advice, and yes you seem to be right about the self-conscious thing. Its weird because as a kid i wasn't like this like i am now. And i probably should stop smoking, because otherwise i may be missing something else that the pot makes me not notice. I'm thinking of seeing a psychologist or something another this coming week. Hopefully they can give me some advice to start out with. Thank you for your input. | |
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