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Hip
Joined: Aug 10, '09
Status: Junior User |
2009-08-29 04:07:09 |
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TotalAversion, let me explain why people like you get ostracized, hopefully youll understand why you ARE mentally f---ed and why society puts up measures to keep people like you in your place. You are right about humanity being bloodthirsty cumbuckets and avoiding for that reason, knowing most people are hardly worth jack s--- of any time. But your hypersensitivity is the key problem. Being aware you live in a s---hole is one thing, but if you are too weak and pathetic that you cant defend yourself from it or you let it have so much emotional effect on you, then you are gonna get what you deserve sooner or later. I'm schizoid and I keep to myself most of the time, and trust me when I say that didnt stop a--holes from attempting to get in my way. But I'm more than ready to hit back twice as hard when some ugly county f---wit somehow has the balls to f--- with me without a good reason. And to date i've never lost a fight. People tell me I got this look in my eye that makes me look crazy and impulsive, which is why everybody avoids me (those that dont know me anyway), so in a sense, OTHERS are being schizoids to me, but I gotta say I like it that way. I think I inherited my SPD from my father, who was a bigtime avoidant/schizotypal guy. He has few friends, never gets out of the house and ALWAYS f---ING WHINES TWENTY-FOUR-f---ING-SEVEN ABOUT EVERYTHING IMAGINEABLE. He always would ramble random, bulls--- philosophies about how the world is messed up and how everyone seems to be sick except him. He argued and ripped on me with every chance he got, ripped on my hobbies, ripped on every person I hung out with and always told me how I'm gonna end up on the street or in a psyche ward etc. As a kid I couldnt figure out why he was so whacked but I think I do now. He had a s---ty childhood, was one of those ugly retards that never had any friends, he repeated grade 8 twice and the first time he has ever been with a woman was with my mom who happens to be a capital whore that cheated on him for probably the 50th time by now. He would easily lock up in a social situation and end up making an idiot of himself. but throughout adulthood, he learned to mask his retardation. For example, when he's about to sound like a dork in conversation, he'll get up and aggressively assert "I gotta go! Wasting my time here!" or at home when addressing me or my mom hed go like "I'm tired! dont f---in bug me!" and then come out of his room 20 minutes later with a wisely thought-up choice of words on how we are so dysfunctional, have mental problems and he is such a radical hard-working saint working his minimum-wage s--- job at age 40 when everybody else his age has a degree. So in summary, you people are heavily disturbed, obviously hate yourselves and everyone around you. You think its our fault that you're too much of a loser to take care of yourselves, and that were responsible for your grief cuz yall happen to be full of s--- and hypersensitive? If you had control of a nuke, would you hessitate to drop it on a city? i doubt it. In a way, I would even encourage you, as I could care less what happens to 200,000 dimwads that are wasting resources and garnishing my wage. However, I could be one of those 200,000 in that very city. Do you still wonder why society makes sure people like you understand your place? If your encouraged to think that you're normal and leave your pretty small space that you call your world, then were gonna have problems. You feel mistreated, you're burning with f---in rage, so dont try to convince me you dont get thoughts to take your vengeance out on some poor perfect bastard. Hope this was helpful. Stop pretending you're fine. |
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heartbreakvictim
Joined: Oct 17, '09
Status: New User |
2009-10-17 23:41:48 |
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I would love to hear some suggestions on how to keep my relationship with a man that I know has avoidant personalty d/o. I have been on and off with him for three years. Sometimes, I think he gets scared off a little and requires space, which Iam currently respecting. I am worried he will not come around. I am the one who has to reach out to him, but I feel he will reject me. I know he has this b/c I am an RN and this totally describes him. I just wanna know by any man who has this if you get scared off by committment or when you develop strong feelings? If so, what should or could I do to keep things good between us. I love him, he said to me once, "you don't love me" but I do love him. We have known each other since age 8 and he was 11. He keeps coming into my life and then ends it. This has happened to me so many times, but the fact that we get back together and things are great keep me hopeful. As I said, right now I am giving him distance, I asked how long, about a month? He agreed, but I miss him like crazy. What if he doesn't call when the month is up? Should I call him or make him call me? Please I welcome suggestions. Thanks! |
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